sketches 'n' scribbles of an undercover hobag

i need to take sundays off seriously. and not wait days between writing entries so that my daily events read like novels. i appologize again for the ridiculous length of the last one XD. hope i didn't bore anyone to tears and eventually death. ;)

so this is an art dump! woo! first piece of OCAD/real portfolio shiz that was such a bitch to do i almost cried this morning. starting off with the fact that i had to close last night 'cause i took a shift for sasha and coupled with the fact that i frigging partied like an animal all last week while working and going to class full time i left myself NO TIME to work on my projects and assignments. so i get home around midnight which is later than usual 'cause i had cash out problems of course and was all delirious and joking around with vanessa and my manager until late. i started on the project at probably around 1am XD. worked until like 5:30am, got to sleep around 6am, woke up at 8, got ready and called a cab (if i had rode my bike and got ready properly i would not have been able to sleep at all XD). our project was to pick one colour and represent it in a suitable design incorporating some kind of typeface into it. simple enough and i already had the general concept sketched out in my new mini sketchbook so i knew what i was doing at least. anyway got it done and when i woke up i was stumbling around trying to get ready and of course couldn't find the shirt i wanted to wear so i was TOTALLY raging and tossing my room upside down at one point i just sat on my couch and cried for a sec before i realized i had like 20 minutes to get to wait for a cab and drive to school in downtown rush hour traffic heh. so i finally get it together and get to class. about two minutes late or so.

the presentation wasn't as good as i would have liked. first of all he twisted it around and made it so that we presented another person's work instead of our own. so we had to go up and say what we liked and didn't like and make suggestions on other people's work, then he would ask 'who did this one?' and they'd stand up and give their reasons. i understand his angle i guess but since i was so snappy and emotionally wrecked at this point i wasn't too thrilled. the girl who presented mine had no idea what i was trying to "say", she said it was either a good thing or bad and couldn't read one of the words XD. i find the whole 'trying to say' thing really annoying though. the idea of the project was to represent a colour. so me and lots of others actually, just thought of all the things that came to mind for a particular colour and plotted them on the page in an appealing manor, no political/social/controversial message. also i picked purple and i find that it doesn't have an obvious and easy way to 'say something' with it like say red, blue, or green which is what like everyone else picked besides me and two other girls who did purple. and all three of us did the same thing in different ways. what's purple? hmm... grapes, the night sky, royalty, eggplants, purple haze XD etc. it was cool though 'cause after i explained myself (so not the way i wanted to and had jotted down on paper might i add T__T) one of the girls spoke up and said she thought it was really beautiful and i was all 'OMG thank youuu'. and another guy spoke up and said he thought the typeface worked really well with my idea. another chick (every class has one of these types who raises her hand to critique everyone like five times a piece XD) said she liked the composition! imagine that! me and good composition. i didn't think we really gelled. my prof said my composition was good too but that i had the emphasis in the wrong spot and i got what he meant totally when he pinned my illustration upside down and the dark purple was in the top left corner it was like one of those whooooa moments. 'twas cool. i got another compliment on it when we were outside having a smoke break too so that made me slightly less edgy. but i did skip the rest of my classes today 'cause well... i slept through them!!! *wails* it's art history too so i'm soooo fucked for notes and readings but she puts everything up on the class website so i should be semi-okay. plus one of the guys in my art history class applied and is now working at the cafe so i can totally bug him for notes ha ha. anyway on to the art! sorry another novel...

( colour and 2D design project #1: violet )

i had a great week XD! my bday was on september the 13th and yes i had a full day of my most boring classes and i had work due for both classes T__T. i think once we move into october i'll be fully comfortable with the whole 'present to the class/critique' thing that OCAD's obsessed with heh. i mean every class we have a project due and we have to present/critique so it's impossible to be shy about it after a while XD. anyway lemme tell a lil' story about a girl who loves to party her rear off...

thursday the 14th: so this was the start of the celebration. me and mum went out for a nice dinner on wednesday the actual day though. went to a fancy boutique hotel restaurant and had martinis, awesome food, wine, and sinful desserts XD! 'twas nice! anyway so me and the cafe crepe crew (sasha, vanessa, joel & josee, and james) got together on thursday at the gladstone (an old seedy hotel/tavern in the artsy/trendy queen west area that's been completely renovated and is all the uber rage now XD! they have karaoke!). it was cool though 'cause my best friend lauren met up with us so it was like old school friends meet new school friends heh. i LOVE that! kristina was supposed to come too but she had a bad night with the dude she met up with for drinks and didn't feel like bringin' down the party so she never showed T__T. kinda disappointing but meh. so after hanging at the gladstone for a while we headed over to the social for some dancing. another bar in the same area same artsy trendy crowd that you usually just have to ignore to have a better time XD. music was great as always though they start off with really good house then move into like retro 80's synthesized dance crazyness. it rocks. only thing that sucked is everyone was broke and had things to do early in the morning so by the time last call rolled around everyone had jetted except me and vanessa and we were still lookin' for trouble at that point heh. especially me they'd all gotten me pretty trashed. so one of the insanely hot bartenders invites me to the hotel/bar next door called the drake (last call at 4am!!!) but it was still infested with film festival madness red carpets, velvet ropes and there was a big arse line up so that didn't happen. according to vanessa i bitched out this dude for trying to butt in front of us XD! i'm such a lush case. so we finally decided to just call it a night and i hop in a cab not even thinking about how much i had left in the bank. not enough. i get to the bank machine at the top of my street and i didn't have over $20 to take out T__T. so i was like $5 short for the ride and the driver was PISSED. i had to give him my ID (including my newly and painstakingly acquired student ID). i finally got it back on saturday but MAN. i swear i get into some kind of shit every time i go out XD.

friday the 15th: so i had class at noon which wasn't so bad. i actually don't mind going to class slightly hungover. i just drink tea after tea (irish breakfast, babeh!) raise my hand to babble every five minutes like i always do. had form and structure which is one of those classes where you're like 'why the fuck am i taking this? i'm a 2D design student and this is a flipping 3D design course! dooooood!'. but i'm actually kind of interested in working with crazy materials building funky 3Dish things heh. anyway after class i headed over to the cafe early 'cause i had nothing better to do. started at 3:30 instead of 4 and closed with sasha jane and vanessa. we whirlwind closed so we could still make the bars when we got out XD. went over to the black bull pub for pints and james met us there along with star and vanessa (servers take longer to close than baristas 'cause they gotta mop and do cutlery roll ups). hung out there then me and james headed up to our buddy santa's house around like 2:30 XD. she had a party that night but it was pretty mellow by the time we showed up. had a good night though i left way too late! i had to work again at 11am and i think i got home at like 6am. more of a laid back evening but still fun.

saturday the 16th: work was okay though september is insane busy time at the cafe so saturday and sunday days are like MADNESS. but we managed like always and i got home around 6 or so. hung out with mum and watch some t.v. project runway RULES and the new one's on tonight! after that we watched 21 grams from about half an hour to an hour in so i so need to watch that again heh. heavy movie. anyway we made plans to just go to our second neighborhood watering hole bar called wide open so that the people closing at the cafe could still make it in time. it's a teeny place with crazy drink deals every night. saturday is ladies drink all they can for $15 XD. i think it's a girls only thing 'cause if they let guys do that there would be serious ruckus. so i rounded up kelly & dave, jesse, sasha, jane, and vanessa, paul and some of his buddies were already there. good times! it was packed 'cause they somehow managed to fit a cover band in the back loungy couch area. it was crazy. i met a boy too hee hee. it was weird how we met 'cause sasha jane and i were at the bar doing shots when he came behind sasha and was all joking like 'you know you guys are taking up all the space at the bar! no one else can grab a drink.' kinda deal (the bar was packed and only two girls were bartending so it was hectic). then i, forever the antagonist, turn around all 'psssh whatever all these other people are taking up space too why bug us?!'. then we get to like flirty arguing then he leaned in told me i was gorgeous and kissed my hand. O___o? i was like dooood whoa. we hung out for the rest of the night though. totally cute but totally not my usual type. i tend to go for scruffier guys and j.p. is like mr. clean cut business boy. but yeah he was so sweet and gave me his number so we could meet up outside the bar scene which i thought was cool. i'd go into details but this journal is ridiculously long as is. sorry for that btw XD!

so that's it. soooo long omg. i had a fun birthday week XD. paid for it today though holy crap.

My Personality

Neuroticism	88
Extraversion	76
Openness To Experience	77
Agreeableness	50
Conscientiousness	10

Test Yourself Compare Yourself View Full Report Bebo, Ugg Boots and MySpace Codes by Pulseware Survey Software

You are sociable, outgoing, energetic, and lively. You prefer to be around people much of the time. You can be very easily upset, even by what most people consider the normal demands of living. People consider you to be extremely sensitive and emotional. Novelty, variety, and change spice up your life and make you a curious, imaginative, and creative person. You have some concern with others' needs, and are generally pleasant, sympathetic, and cooperative. You like to live for the moment and do what feels good now. Your work tends to be careless and disorganized.

yay. that was fun. kinda long and there's even more blurbs based on each thing like neurotic, extroverted ect. but i'm not postin' 'em all heh.

oooo... so it's wednesday the 6th. the day i've been waiting for since the new year pretty much. that's JANUARY T__T. here's how shit went...

Drawing the Line (the 6th 8:30am @__@): i won't do this everyday i swear XD! just first class fun ^__^! so this prof pulls the ol' 'let's get to know you' crap and singles each and every one of us out giving our name and what stream (this is what OCAD calls majors XD) we're in. i'm still undecided but for these such purposes i just say graphic design to make it easy. this went on while the techie guy tried to fix the projector for her presentation (apparently no one seems able to work the provided equipment. every single time a prof or student union person's tried to work the projector with a computer for presentation purposes, there's techie difficulties and delay). we get through that, the sylabus and other course crap, finally watch the video, then we were to pick an object from our bags and do a contour then gesture drawing of it. this is where the drafting table shite started up. i could not for the life of me adjust it. i could lift the whole thing up with great difficulty but i couldn't pull the table out so i could draw on it. eventually with several pairs of hands we got it out a little so i just got to work while the thing still held up. apparently these things are new. so i picked the empty cheap coffee cup i'd just drained and got to drawing. my contouring sucks i'm not used to it. she kept coming by and cooing and aawing over the people around me (more than once i might add). she told me to do cleaner lines. the prob is, you go over something alot (especially something round that's in fancy perspective) until you get the right shape. so i was overworking. big surprise XD! by the time i got to gesture i was sick of the cup so i did some perfume bottle someone had laid out and it was a little more easy/natural but i still got no love from teach XD! oh well i knew i sucked at it 'tis why i'm going to school? so we got some work assigned. pick an object that means alot or some cheesy ass shite like that and do the same thing. contour and a gesture. then it's small group critique next class, and the next class we get to present it to the whole class. joy.

The Essay and the Arguement: so drawing ends at 11:20 and this class starts at fucking 3:15pm T__T. i wandered down to chapters to grab a coffee and croissant at starbucks and read. then i got bored of it there and headed up to the OCAD library to kill the rest of the hours until class. boring then dana showed up so we went for a smoke and i kicked it to class finally. not much to say on this though i am looking forward to reading and doing response essays. i really love english and i think i'll have to find a way to combine writing with the drawy stuff later in life heh. so prof asks us to print out on index cards our name, student #, other personal contact and school stream stuff, then... if we could have any super power what it would be. XD. then OF COURSE she goes around the class singling us out for our name and our choice super ability. by the time she started picking people to speak up i wasn't done and hadn't chose so i just listened to everyone's and tried to come up with something that no one had said. time travel. who wouldn't want to go back or forward in time to see how people rocked right? the girl right before me stole my oh so original idea. wtf. XD! i said it anyway and explained why. that was about the highlight then we went into course shit heh. although i have homework for this class due next wednesday on my birthday *le sigh* two readings and two response essays to go with them. i'm actually looking forward to starting like a nerd but i don't have the text yet. they're all so damned expensive. or else they're cheap and there's like 20 of them for the class T__T.

woot for first day of actual class! i'm writing these all on the 7th i'm just being a nerd and backdating them. authenticity is key *0*
<3natasha.

... and i'm a huge one O_O!! you know i've heard the saying "school is for losers" on so many adult cartoons and sitcoms and still have no idea where it came from or what the bloody hell it's supposed to mean. XD. felt appropriate here. so orientation was on tuesday the 5th. 'twas alright though i was a bit well.. not oriented for alot of it. signed up for alot of free give aways though. the Aboveground art materials fair was so NOT what i was hoping but i did sign up for a free give away XD! i also learned that apparently Faber Castel brand pencil crayons are oooh so much better than Prismacolor. Prismacolor are too waxy the dude was saying but i think that's what i love about them XD! they feel like velvet in pencil form <3333. Prisma markers are pure shite, mind. not like i have money to spend on fancy dancy coloured pencils any fucking ways XD. grabbed a bitchload of pamphlets on paints since i may have to dabble there (more so 2nd year methinks) and i haven't the foggiest clue on paint. all in all it was okay. OH!! i did learn good stuff about paper though. Canson actually seems like a pretty good brand it's just way too flipping expensive. i dig their bristol though ^____^.

orientation day: so here's a good one. i head to the administrative building to drop off some forms to financial aid for my OSAP shit (so i get me some monieees). i see a big line up upstairs and figure "hey! these people are all first years! i should wait here too." no, i didn't know what the line was for, yes, i did ask the girl behind me, no, she didn't know either, so yes, i stood there and waited like a fucktard. i have a vague idea that it maybe was student ID card stuff so i think 'ooo yah i need that!'. um... would have helped to have my picture taken though. so i get to the front, hand over my driver's license and the young guy's looking for my card and i so don't see me in the 'deck' and it finally dawns on me so i blurt out 'oh... i don't have my photo taken yet'. he's all 'oh you gotta go downstairs and do that first.' okay. so i go down and there's nothing close to picture taking going on and get redirected to the main building and there's a GIANT line up snaking around all over the place so screw that i head over to financial aid (which is actually in a new room in another building anyway XD) drop off my papers and head back to main building where the line up finally shrunk down. WHAT FUCKING FUN. T__T.

no drawings aren't you lot lucky! ha ha.

waaah finished the lines *0*!! the hands and arms are a bit off i'll have to work on perspectives and sizes next time *sigh* overall i'm aight with it i guess heh.

weapons of choice: staedtler 0.5mm mechanical pencil (i'd forgotten how much better/easier/faster it is to sketch with mechanicals <3), staedtler pigment liners in 0.05 and 1mm, pen paper, and PS7 to crop and colourize the lines blue. oh yah... and me scanner heh.

i'm digging the navy lines *0*! i usually do a dark reddish brown or black but i figured to go with her overall colour scheme why not? er.. we'll see how it goes once coloured...

heh, a prototype if you will. just finished that unfinished right hand and am inking this now and realized she doesn't even have a gun T__T. i've just spent about 15 minutes trying to draw a decent right hand/arm for her so i'm not erasing it altogether to draw a new one with gun. soo frustrating dammit. why can't i draw them? ;_____;

don't know how i'm going to colour it really. paintery doesn't seem right so i'll probably opt for minimal shading and textures. oh yeah this is secret agent girl ^_^. her outfits will consist of alot of pinstripes and bustiers and her colours will be red, navy, and white. i may do her in black, white, and red from time to time and maybe some grey ha ha. but yeah just sort of my main character girl that really has no story or anything but maybe that i could make a label out of or something. woo.

( secret agent girl #1 )

man i'm pretty shit with charcoals XD. my work space is kinda overthrown by my big mac (the comp heh) and random art goodies everywhere so i really have no space to sprawl out and draw. i used to push back the comp and clear some space in front of it. but! i came up with a new system ^__^! i cut up the lid off a holt renfrew gift box and clip loose sheets on it. oooh the cleverr. shite. i have to be in bed like.. an hour ago. i hate work T_____T!! i'll just post the latest dump and be on my merry way to bed...

side note (p.s.): um... they look like young girls. *blink* well the second one's (#4) not as bad but i think that's what's freaking me out most. i could have made them not as rubbish if i'd fleshed the hands out properly but meh. maybe next bach. for now they're rubbish XD.

( figure study #3, 4, and 5 )

right won't babble too much here. just some more studies. i did this plus hand job #4 last night actually but by the time i'd fecked about with the layout and other shit it was far too late to post. i was late for work this morn too T__T!! NEVER attempt to close your eyes for 'just another 15 minutes' and assume you're superwomanly enough to do it without the alarm snoozer on. i wasn't even awake enough to realize i would so not be waking up again until 20 mins 'till my start time heh. what's that ya say? i'm babbling aren't i? sweet. on with the shiz we go...

<3natasha.

kick it (p.s.): these are done using my model drawing book as reference. i know i tend to overwork them which is why i finally broke down and got myself a nice assortment of charcoal bits. i will be needing it for life drawing classes and extra curricular sessions at school (OMFG sept. 6th come noooow!!!), but the last few times i tried it i found it really difficult so i've been avoiding XD! oh yeah and the girl on the left is very off now that i look. her right arm doesn't match up with the belly button and something's fucked with that right hip area heh. it's sad 'cause i'm referencing from a book and can't even get that right ha ha. oh well avert your eyes to the bald chicky on the other side? *shuts up*

( figure study #2 )

'kay moving on. i backlogged some shit from my wordpress so that i have my dorky misadventures catalogued from the begining on here. XP. i spent the last i-don't-even-want-to-admit-how-long trying to find an image host that won't resize the ass out of my pics or restrict everything so much like free online ANYTHING. i now realize how spoiled i've been with my domain for the past er... three years now? four? bah. anyway no more thumbnails. that's just silly and dumb looking *points down*. now i shall try the cut thingies!! 8D

( hand study #4 )

well i won't be updating foxy_fae anymore. i figured it was time for a name upgrade that was more "me" XD! i've been trying to shed the whole "foxy" thing for a while plus well as much as i love elves and fae and all things fantastical, the pixelfaeries community that inspired that name has been long gone for years now heh. time for a change! i love change XD. anyway i hate blabbing about personal shit online so this is mostly where my shitty sketchy art will go. my "agentinc" domain will be expiring soon and i wanted a journal to host my shiz once the real ISpy kicks off this fall. then it will be time for yet another new name. new domain time!

finally found a nice layout and modified the shit out of it. credit is in my userinfo or here. one that allows icons with each post 'cause apparently one has to pay or plaster ads up to get those now. i remember the days when everything allowed avatars/icony things wtfff? wordpress is a bitch to include icons with each post too. T__T! are they going out of style or something? XD! anyway enough geeky babble. i'm happy.

i have no friends though, ha ha! i'm going to go see who i can find (stalk) or if anyone even remembers me XD! yay.
<3natasha.

la la la :D

ooo ahh another #1. heh. got bored of hands so i started a different book (or rather, ripped out all the crap to make it "new"). this book's for figures. i appologize now on behalf of all the shitty quality of these as i don't want to rip things out of my books anymore, i've decided to take pics of them instead and getting the lighting right and fitting the entire page into view is impossible without it looking like ass. so there we have it. at least i'll have nice books filled with stuff in the end as opposed to random loose leaves flying around everywhere which was the route i was headed XD!

weapons of choice: staedtler 2H, HB, and mechanical 0.5 pencils. recycled sketchbook paper. i've rediscovered my love for mechanical pencils. but not just any stupid ol' bic ones (though those work good too XD), teh steadtler! tip is soooo fine and makes such pretty varying lines *starstruck*

i got lazy and didn't shade the second lady there plus her neck's a bit short. bah well. i'll finish shading her up tomorrow night after work and well more studies o' course :P

'till then,
<3natasha.

okay. so i plan to fill sketch books with shit. first book is to be filled with hands. someone on DA said 'don't ask me how to draw hands. fill up a sketchbook with these (refering to deviation of sketched hands XD), and see what happens.' so i thought why not? so here we go...


hand study #2 (these ones are sucky)
hand study #3

weapons of choice: staedtler 2H, HB, and mechanical 0.5mm pencils, staedtler pigment liners 0.1 and 0.05, and letraset markers in warm greys 1-T, 2-T, and 3-T, my left hand XD! the ones in the thumbnail above that are obviously not left hands (the pair holding the lil' box and the front facing one) i actually referenced from a model drawing book ^^

that thumbnail up there is actually my first page which i did weeks ago (as you can see on the dates XD). then i decided to ink them and colour them last night/today. shading with one colour really helps! it's easier to just know where shadows should go so yay there. um the second one is shite from last night and the third's probably a bit improved but long way to go. that's it!

<3natasha.